I deleted the old stuff and am starting fresh once again.

So...Im about to be GRADUATED! TOMORROW!!!!

Anyways, I realized that i create alot of stuff in my head. But it allows me to answer questions that people dont answer. Like, if i ask a person a question and they half way answer it, i automatically analyze it. Its just soemthing i do. Its because i learned most of the things i know by listening. Even if im not supposed to be listening, i do. I can actually hear very well. Like when i heard people at the studio talking about me, i had already heard the conversation that took place before they even came up to me. So, I mean I knew i already if they were lying to me. Also, I see mind games that people play. Ive seen what people have done in the past and what people have said about others and how they react to things. So, that is how i judge what could be going on. I mean i dont up and assume people are an ass. I know how they act or have seen how they act before. See, there is only one person i dont like because of personality clash, meaning by choice. Normally the people i dont like i dont like because they talk about me or talk down to me or have done something to piss me off. Alot of people dont understand that one of my flaws are that i trust people to easily and i make everyone a good, trustworthy person in my head when they really arent. There are people who have wrong intentions and are really jerks. Oh,and i definately dont like people who are jerks to me. Its just the way it is.

Also, It drives me crazy that people act like they know me and know what i am talking about but dont know me and just assume what is comfortable to them. I wish people would just ask me. Im pretty opinionated. I dont want to not tell people things. Infact, Id wrather ask so its not in question. People dont realize that there is more to me than what they know. There is more to me than Ms. Miser at the studio. There is more to me than Molly at church. There is more to me than Molly at work. There is more to me than Molly at school. There is more to me than Molly Jane at Camp or Molly May around church extended family, there is more to me than Molly at home.

Trying to find good lyrics.
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Excuse me, Think ive mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself. -Ahh....Jewel. "Foolish Games"

I cant wait till i have kids. Thats going to be the greatest day of my life. I love to love. I wish i could love all of the time. Just show my love. That would be great. I cait wait to have kids. I mean i dont want time to go by faster, but i really want to have kids. I dont really look at the loving another person as much anymore but that would be great. I guess its because im not dating. Oh well, what the hell. But holy cow, its not like i cant get a boyfriend. Sometimes i wish i did date the scum of the earth...no that would be boring. Because i cant enjoy the physical aspect of the relationship with someone im not attracted to. It doesnt work. Been there, tried that. So at least whoever i marry will be soothed with the knowledge i would never do anything wiht another person. Because im a one guy kind of woman. :-)