I realized that:
-The more i dislike a person, the more nice i make myself be to them.
-The more i am uncomfortable, the more i resort to being happy/hyper
-The more i am scared of pissing someone off, the more i talk about happy things.
-The more i'm annoyed, the more direct i am.
-The more tired i am, the more i talk and analyze things.

Its funny how i called someone and told them to call me but i dont count on them ever. If my life depended on it, they would never be there on time or call when i ask, or even text when i text them. God, thats sorta depressing.