Tomorrow i test for 2r. I'm so nervous.
I think when I got upset that i didnt break my boards in three and mr gailes came to talk to me, he was trying to help me. But im so anal about doing hw. I hate when people talk to me or bother me and thats the first thing he does when i'm doing hw. So, i tell him i'm doing hw so he gets the hint. It doesnt bother me that much because he doesnt have the irritating history that my mom does.
God, i'm so nervous about breaking tomorrow. Its upsetting. Like, i want to cry.
Im getting that feeling that i got before i took my exam for CNA. BAD.
Did i ever mention how much i hate being at the studio? I hate how the people that smile to my face are the same people who talk shit about me behind my back. I dont know who to trust anymore. I stick to people like Eric Leonard who is just nice. Then theres Meg who rocks.
Meg is one of the only genuine people at the studio who has a genuine smile. I am starting to think that everyone else well yeah, are two faced. Its not that i dont like them, its that i dont know if i can trust them. No one understands now many tears ive cried just out of frustration becuase i dont know if what tehy are saying is real.
Yes, it does bother me. Only because I wish everyone was real. I dont understand why people arent who they portray themselves to be. I feel alone at the studio and i used to call it my home...so it sucks.
People dont understand that. They think im fucking crazy or something. No, they just dont know me and i dont think i want them to either.
I think when I got upset that i didnt break my boards in three and mr gailes came to talk to me, he was trying to help me. But im so anal about doing hw. I hate when people talk to me or bother me and thats the first thing he does when i'm doing hw. So, i tell him i'm doing hw so he gets the hint. It doesnt bother me that much because he doesnt have the irritating history that my mom does.
God, i'm so nervous about breaking tomorrow. Its upsetting. Like, i want to cry.
Im getting that feeling that i got before i took my exam for CNA. BAD.
Did i ever mention how much i hate being at the studio? I hate how the people that smile to my face are the same people who talk shit about me behind my back. I dont know who to trust anymore. I stick to people like Eric Leonard who is just nice. Then theres Meg who rocks.
Meg is one of the only genuine people at the studio who has a genuine smile. I am starting to think that everyone else well yeah, are two faced. Its not that i dont like them, its that i dont know if i can trust them. No one understands now many tears ive cried just out of frustration becuase i dont know if what tehy are saying is real.
Yes, it does bother me. Only because I wish everyone was real. I dont understand why people arent who they portray themselves to be. I feel alone at the studio and i used to call it my home...so it sucks.
People dont understand that. They think im fucking crazy or something. No, they just dont know me and i dont think i want them to either.
posted by ME at 6:43 PM
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