Life kinda sucks right now. I started school wednesday which was the best thing for me. I am such a busy body and having something to do is almost theraputic.

But, my friends, the people that understand me and/or care are either at college or so caught up in their own lives i have all these thoughts stuck in my head that i cant say. I cant get someones opinion. I mean someone that really cares.

Then there was the end of the week. I found out that because i didnt have one thing i bought in my check book, I was over drawn. That was when i went to put 45 dollars in my savings account and found out i was still 59 cent in the red. That normally isnt a problem. Well, that was wednesday. Thursday, i was on e light and i had no money to get gas. Then, thank god i got my paycheck and i transfered 100 from savings. But its such a horrible feeling when you dont have any money anywhere and you need gas. I didnt even have cash to get me through.

Then i went to the studio and vegged because it was all i could handle at the time. People dont care there and the ones that do dont need my drama. I refuse to add to their drama. I wont give a person my drama who cant handle their own.

I would have gone home but my parents dont understand me. If i come home in a bad mood, they will assume im just being a bitch and be the same back to me or if i tell them they will caudle me and i dont need that either. I want someone to either give me advice.

I want to spend time with someone i know cares and loves me. But i dont think that will even happen.

God, im crying. I have all of these friends. But id wrather have a best friend than a ton of friends who dont understand me.