Ahh, so things are a little better. Not much really. I still am a little stresed out. Well im tired-exhausted. So, much thought. I just want to crawl into a hole and get it. That would make my life so much easier.

I wish i was adult. They seem to "get it". I dont "get it" or "understand". Maybe one day will get there. One day i might get there or arrive.