I decided when i have kids i want to name them:
Micah Jordan (and call him Joey)
and
Skylar Marie (Skylar-Ree)

the other two my husband can pick out. hehe.

But i like Adelade as a middle name
Like Rose Adelade

and i like

Ian James? hmm im still concocting that name..

ive gotten on this pitch were i cant wait to have kids

So, i just thought about it and i havent posted in a pretty long time. Let me update you on my life...the life of molly.

I was a youth group leader. But im not doing it anymore because I am taking cna next semester so i want to train alot so ill be able to test in february or march. Ahh...too many things happening at once.

Next, i practice test for the second time tomorrow. Which will make me able to test.

CNA is next semester. Today is the last day of this semester.

My goal is to move out. Bleh...im working to get there.

Taekwondo is actually going good for once. I dont have alot of drama for once also. Im trying to keep it that way.

Umm...nothing else anymore new that what i jsut said...

well i work at blockbuster and golden corral. which is cool.

Its amazing to me how people think they know me but they have no idea.

Anyways, Mr Gailes said something that felt genuine today. So, it made me feel good. He told me that my testing was good.

But i get confused to whether he is doing his job, or really cares. And the first one stays dominant in my head. Because of how a person treats me when i am not in class.

I get so frustrated with taekwondo. People dont know me, then they will act like they do. Then they will be nice to me. Than i get confused.

I realized that:
-The more i dislike a person, the more nice i make myself be to them.
-The more i am uncomfortable, the more i resort to being happy/hyper
-The more i am scared of pissing someone off, the more i talk about happy things.
-The more i'm annoyed, the more direct i am.
-The more tired i am, the more i talk and analyze things.

Its funny how i called someone and told them to call me but i dont count on them ever. If my life depended on it, they would never be there on time or call when i ask, or even text when i text them. God, thats sorta depressing.

Me:

I want: to be treated with respect, to be communicated to, made feel like i'm special to them, to feel important to them.

I need: to be communicated to, them to not need me (i dont want to your momma, or counselor or psychiatrist. i want them to want it badly though.), them to be patient with me, to try to understand me, if not ask.

Dreams: married with kids and love someone more than they can ever imagine.

Goals:
4th Degree Blackbelt
Be independant

My Requirements to even MAYBE have a chance, and even still i dont want a boyfriend and am not looking for one, so it probably would never happen...ha ha ha but this has to happen:

1-Cares about themself
~smells good
~knows how to dress
~carries themself confidently
~shaves (facial hair isnt the issue, i dont want to see your six o'clock shadow 3 days later)
~Healthy: cares about themself physically
~Doesnt smoke/smoke pot
2-Drinking is okay (but not excessively, all the time)
3-Cares about what others think, to an extent
4-Faithful
5-Independant: Doesnt need me
6-Respects me, makes me feel important to them
7-Communicates to me

little extras
~like kids, wants kids
~respectful to my friends and family (doenst have to like them by any means)
~likes animals, being in nature, music, adventure, touch
~open minded
~respects my religious views
~respects my dreams, goals, wants, needs

I have a new obsession. "Id Lie" -Taylor Swift. Its soo cute. It makes me think about all the guys who wish they could have me. haha...I'm so cocky. But its the truth. Lemme give you my list:

Guys:
-Math Class: Tim: Does my math work for me.
-Psychology: Will(is): is my foot rest during psych.
-Lunch: Andy: (has a girl friend) Takes me to lunch and periodically spots me.
-Soc: Brenden: Is a jerk during class, keeps me amused, or becomes my head rest and brings a book so i dont have to.
-Eric. God he likes me. I feel bad though because im not trying to lead him on. He runs with me and hangs out with me after sociology.
-I swear Andrew likes me too. Why would he have me closing with him 3 nights in a row with him? Plus, he really only has me working with him. Plus, he as to hit me or do something all the time.

So, many boys. Too bad i would never date them

Tim: just, no. he'd make a great high school boyfirned. But that isnt what im looking for.
Will(is): way too weird, doesnt care about himself, not self confident
Andy: has a girlfriend, and i dont like seeing his six o'clock shadow three days later
Brenden: is acually really cool, but he does pot and drinks alot and i dont like that at all, hes also a big jerk
Eric: needs: to care about himself, look like he cares about himself, treat himself like he does, and have backbone, and confidence.
Andrew: EWWWW. Thats gross. He's gross. He's a big jerk and hes disrespectful.


So thus ends my schpeel about guys. But i figured, they will hold on and i will keep getting the hours i want, the spotted lunch, and something to do when i am bored.

Yesterday

B-Muffin and Sobe
D-Sesame chicken

Today
Lunch-Poptart

Im so frustrated. I went to graduation, that was okay.

peace

So this week, ive made 97 dollars off of babysitting so far this week and i still have this weekend. haha

Today:
L-a chicken finger, mashed potatoes, and the other half of the plate was salad.
D-burger king-chicken nugget kids meal

-went to work
-picked up henry from the bus stop and baston
-went to bbt class
-babysat for the nizens
-Taichi